i didn't intend to go so long between posts but things kept getting in the way - mainly falling asleep at night :( i realized that i forgot to take my iron most of this week so hoping that will fix that issue. It is also a reminder that I need to get back to my priorities. I did, however, keep a few notes for posts that were never written, so i will attempt to copy some of them below so i still have a record of the week.
i have been very frustrated with the scale this week. it went down last week and i thought i was back on track, but creeping up again. i'm sure it is my body readjusting to things after 2 weeks of mostly sedentary recovery from surgery. one step forward, 2 steps back. that has been the story of my life & WL efforts and i'm kind of disappointed that this pattern has returned.
a few notes from the past week (Mostly sunday - tuesday):
No exercise -- frustration. Feel impact even when walking/shopping past week. Tired
10 min outside walk w son felt good to be moving again
monday: Cooked dinner 1st time in 2 wks today. Time crunch & knew it wouldn't be a favorite. W family but did it anyways...brown rice, mashed beans w garlic, topped w cheese (1/4- 1/3 c total ) baked. W tortilla. would have been better without the tortilla and with some broccoli but better than grabbing pasta, mac & cheese, or 'snack' food while i was out.
Felt good to know I had more control over meal after 2 wks relying on others
Low on veggies today but feel as if were heading in right direfcrion.
Skipped DD . Really Tempted by vending machine steps from office door. But I did not do it.
Oatmeal w p.b. Mixed in (1 t measured) & raisins. Snack pack sweethearts (an old v-day tradition but i did not buy a whole bag). Thai - extra veggie.
which brings me to today...i'm feeling a bit down this week. i know i could be making better choices in some areas, need to add exercise slowly again (hand will limit me for a while but i can still move my legs & walk!). i'm going to a wedding in a month and want to at least lose what i gained from the 2 courses of prednisone in december and surgery this month. i know it is good to have a goal, but part of me feels like i don't want to set one because i probably won't make it...defeatist i know...it's probably an 80/20 split between thinking that i can work towards it and feeling as if i can't...
these are challenging days but hopefully i'll look back on them and see once again how far i've come. i'm still in a better place than i was a year ago but i feel like it's a constant challenge to find and stay motivated and positive right now (and also that i NEED to find a way through that and remember that i am worth it and slowly i'll get there.
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