Sunday, July 14, 2013

reality check + vacation

I'm once again on vacation - writing from the same street as last year. i stared down chocolate yesterday - on my birthday - and didn't even want any. i guess that's a good thing. however, i am in a much different --and in some ways, more negative -- place than last year. 

but trying to eat healthy on vacation is HARD. everyone brings sweets. My MIL brought chocolate cake for my birthday - although i told my husband that i'd be happy with a fruit parfait or tart. At least it was a small cake, but i've had 3 pieces over the past 2 days. She brought at least a quart of blueberries from our favorite farm, and then commented that I should "save some for the rest of us" when I apparently put too many on my cereal one morning. i want to find local berries, but that too is met with questions about why i would spend my vacation driving around to try to find a farm...

Eating out is also a challenge. I've given up on finding 'healthy' on the menu at the beachside stands and institutions that have been here forever. I settled on a basic grilled cheese the other day-they did have a veggie sandwich but i know from past years that veggie is not something they do well. At least I went with something where I can identify the ingredients and relatively low in sodium.

We went out last night and i did not get ice cream -even as i stood in line with others who did- though i will probably get some tonight. After our surf & turf dinner of lobster (which i don't eat anyway) and steaks on the grill. I found local zucchini and organic (if not local) potatoes at the farm yesterday, so I plan to make something with those to go with the meat and carbs. We also have delicious local corn - our first of the season.

I feel better overall than I have for a while- almost lighter - though my ankles and calves are sore from all of the walking. My body is definitely reminding me that it is overall a bit rusty since last year's trip.  I am disappointed that i'm in the same bathing suit and different shorts this year -because the old ones don't fit well anymore.  That is upsetting to me. I suppose that is a good thing in the long run, but really not a good feeling and a reminder of how far I have NOT come since last year.  

SO - what do others do on vacation? Even if you can't always make the best choices, have limited options, etc.- how do you cope with that psychologically? it is hard not to feel like i'm defeating myself or to say "what the heck...i'm on vacation" and not lose focus on the big picture.